Saturday, February 25, 2012

Home Ownership and OCD

Well, in less than 3 days I will finally be a home owner. I have to say that this is STRESSFUL. I haven't even closed on the house yet, and I feel like I am losing my mind!! Those of us who have OCD don't handle disorganization that well, and that's how I feel right now; disorganized. I have been freaking out all week long because it still feels like there are 100 things left to do. I have made list upon list and still can't get my mind right. Now, I am not one of those with OCD that has rituals. I don't have to turn a light off a certain number of times before I enter or leave a room. I don't have to turn door knobs a certain number of times, or what my hands a certain number of times. I can also step on any crack in the ground without hyperventilating. I do, however, have to have things in order, and I have to do things a specific way or I FREAK out. My dad has told me this past week that I remind him of the coffee guy from the post office commercials, and my boyfriend has said that he is going to tie me to a chair in the backyard if I don't calm down. I don't see their problem! I just want to make everything is done; and done right! So, in order to combat my OCD tendencies, and to keep my anxiety levels down, I spent the last 4 hours, with my calendar open on my phone, making myself reminders all through the month of March for every single school assignment I have, every shopping list that I need, and everything we will be doing to the house,, along with times and alarms to go off for each. I also put lists in my boyfriend's for everything he has to do. Now, I can breathe!!! They can all laugh at me, and they can tie me to whatever chair they want, but at least now I know that while I'm sitting in that chair, they will be hearing alarms going off and reading everything that has to be done!!! Is it really that bad to have OCD and want everything to be organized?!?!?!?!!

1 comment:

  1. That's not necessarily OCD; you just seem to be proactive and prepared. Good things, IMO.

    Congrats on your house. Buying a house was the best thing I've done besides having my children!

    K. Smith
    Engl 226

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